Filling my passport with family, travel and bliss

Hey there!

I can’t believe it’s been over a month since I’ve written anything.  Sorry I’ve been MIA, but I’ve had valid reasons.  I turned 39 last month (ok, that’s NOT a valid reason…but worth a shot!)

To put it mildly, I had the blues…big time!  Do you ever feel like the life you were dreaming of and striving for is not turning out quite as planned?  That contributed to my blues in addition to some other things that have been weighing on my heart lately, and they all seemed to escalate at one time (like the perfect storm) which caused me much anxiety and worry.

I felt totally lost, not in control of my life and just not myself.  Sometimes I would suddenly wake up in the middle of the night sobbing uncontrollably, or I would sit straight up in bed from a sound sleep and be completely panicked with my heart pounding.   The last time I had a panic attack in the middle of the night was when I was leaving for my first solo trip to New Zealand, and I jumped out of bed thinking I was late for my flight…I wish that was the reason for my anxiety.

So writing in my blog was the last thing I wanted to do especially because this blog is about filling my passport with bliss…not sadness!

But I’m happy to report that I’m back to my old self.  I’m learning to chill out more, not stress over things that I can’t control, not bottle things up inside as much, and remind myself that things happen for a reason (even though sometimes I have no idea what those reasons are!)

I have lots of fun blog topic ideas to share in the upcoming months starting with a trip to Morro Bay & San Luis Obispo with the hubby next week!  It’ll be great to escape for 4 days and have a little rest & relaxation.

On that note, here’s a photo from a camping trip my husband and I took about 2 weeks ago.  We went to Crab Flats which is right between Big Bear & Lake Arrowhead.  Crab Flats has lots of off roading areas, so we took my hubby’s jeep for a spin and stopped for some photo ops.

I guess you could say I’m “On the Road Again”…to happiness!  🙂